from the life of Sidney SN:
“And so I’m once again fascinated that others know nothing about who is Germany or the Benelux. They wouldn’t even try if they knew the reality. Ordinary Germans wouldn’t behave like this because of their values and culture. The same applies to the Benelux. Across most of Europe, I’m known because of this absurdity. And then another person comes along who doesn’t realize it themselves—that they’ll only end up becoming famous as an asshole across Europe, with no one understanding what they’re about.”
Sometimes I think—if I’m not exaggerating with words, if it doesn’t sound egotistical—but this isn’t egotistical, I’m not pushing anything away; it’s just an absurd feeling I have when I understand this reality. Sometimes it might seem to some people that I’m an introvert, but I’m not. I’m just someone who observes what they do, because I understand their reality. I always realize that they don’t know reality.
And then I lie on the bed, and I’m constantly caught off guard by laughter as well, because even consciousness itself bursts into laughter.